Posted by Alli (160.129.27.22) on February 06, 2002 at 00:13:14:
In Reply to: I want you all to no... posted by panch on February 05, 2002 at 23:09:34:
& i'll settle down, pancho. THAT is what makes me fake you out. you don't know me completely, & i don't want you to know me that completely (no sexual inference there, i swear). &, for that matter, i don't WANT to know you completely, either, because it's a violation, it's intrusive. i respect you too much to do that to you. now the question is: will you please do the same for me?
you're right about some things you say about me, but really wrong about the other things you say & think about me. that's not meant as a challenge, just as a comment made to give you insight into my slight anger at you. the transparency you see through is intentional (& it is made intentionally that way, so that you feel like you've accomplished something by "seeing through" me), & the things i keep from you, NO ONE will ever see. i'm very complex... & i like it this way. i never wanted to be simple inside.
essentially, i like you, but i have my own life to live - i grow to detest people who tell me how & why i ought to live - & remember, i'm a musician. i've been trained to make magic & feel & tell stories through sound (or in this case, i translate it as best as i can into writing). & my stories are BASED in reality, some more so than others.