Posted by Alli (160.129.95.51) on February 07, 2002 at 12:33:01:
In Reply to: Re: an idea- GASP! posted by Stella on February 07, 2002 at 12:23:40:
hey, i don't smoke, so don't worry... it's just that my friend George used to tell me that smoking gave you a good excuse not to talk & just sit outside, watch things, & think. but, i already do that without the smoking...
the blushing is good! i wouldn't say that kissing girls has to be "sexual;" it can be very sisterly, if you're not a "lesbian"... hell, we'd compare each other & see who was the best kisser. it's not life threatening, & if anything, it made us a lot closer... god, i miss my girlfriends so much it hurts sometimes. when we get together once a year, we all hate the leaving part. i have this crazy notion that we're going to all settle down together at the end of our lives & drive each other crazy for fun - get high & shit-faced like we did in undergrad, & talk about everything under the sun. i was always the morose one, the one they had to entice into games they played... sometimes they'd see me sitting in a tree & have to call me down, sometimes i'd hear one of them crying in her room late at night, & hold her while she told me about her fears in life & how shitty her "real" dad was to her family. my family had no problems, so they'd host my friends whenever they didn't have a place to go for vacations... my current boyfriend is kind of like them - he's more my best friend than anything else - i wouldn't have it any other way.