Posted by pancho (148.221.115.229) on December 04, 2001 at 09:08:56:
Well, actually just lies. What can have possessed Atour Golani to now claim that he had my three sculptures welded in his garage, and with the help of a neighbor, and not at Ford with a technician there, as he and Janey first told the story. We will want to know who the neighbor is...his name and address etc. I know why, because he and Janey are afraid...as afraid as I was when Atour shut me down after months work preparing to show at the convention...as afraid as I am when I think about how much harder it is now to support my children than it always was...now that He and Janey and Jackie and John Nimrod and Carlo Ganjeh and Alphonse Odishoo have spread all the lies and inuendo they could.
What aills us as a people. Why can we not stand for anyone to succeed as an Assyrian on the OUTSIDE. Dont they realize that for me to live my life and work in such a way as to please Atour and Janey and John Nimrod, I would kill all my chances of making anything of myself out in the world...that world that bombs us now and kills us but doesnt even know we exist. Why do the assholes at aina keep PROTESTING...why dont they allow someone to GET out there and tell people so maybe we wont have to protest after the fact only.
What possess someone like Francis Sarguis to seek to discredit someone like Narsai David. Why take off after an Assyrian who has brought honor and recognition to our name. How many times has Narsai expained over the radio and on television, including shows he has hosted himelf, about how it was his Assyrian mother who first inspired him and depended on him to help out in the kitchen when his father died of cancer and left the woman alone to raise three kids. Where else do you suppose this kind of information gets out to the world.
Why would Francis make up the lie he did, why would he include the University in his lie, claiming that they told him something they couldnt possibly have because it doesnt exist on their records for one thing. Why go to all that trouble...what harm was Narsai doing in Francis eyes.
Why the lies about me...why the attacks on my dead father, on my children...on my knowledge or accuracy or artistry...why. Why do we pat every Assyrian snot nosed kid on the back and say he or she did just fine when in reality their artwork stinks...and why take off after the kid who actually shows promise.
Is it so important that I used an earring that some self proclaimed expert of ours, an expert the world will never hear of because HE is afraid to go public and not because the world wouldnt accept him...is that more important than getting the name and the designs out there. Can I not make the great leap it seems to some people to be, to say that Sargon more than likely wore the same helmet his grandson did...and why do our experts take every frigging Westerners word for what is and isnt accurate. Just because they have the money to go digging does not give them the right or knowledge to identify what they dig up...and lord knows theyve made plenty of mistakes in the past, and will again...why is no one from our community taking off after them...why was it more important to NOT back me, than to show Ross he was wrong, dead wrong.
I will say it again...we have become so used to hearing the mantra of the church since childhood...that Christianity, ESPECIALLY our brand, the REAL CHRISTIANITY, saved us...that we dont inquire a little further into how it supposedly did that.
There is something rotten at the core of that argument...for we are hardly SAVED today by anyones definition, anyone EXCEPT us. For us to be saved at all we have to lose everything of value on this earth, including our good name and standing. Christ sacrificed everything to get to heaven and take us with him. Like the earliest cenobites and such who went out in the desert leaving everything behind, we too send our children off into the world with absolutely nothing of value. Oddly enough we want them to get BMWs and Benzs and expensive shoes and go to Vegas and all that crap...crap that can at least de less harm if you have some sense of self worth...but we dont give them that. We want them to identify with and respect and revere the very people who are raping their mothers and their mother and fatherlands. How could we have gotten so low.
It is exactly the message of the Christianity we have been taught...it certainly isnt the going definition in the Trade. Those who believe as we were taught to believe will get exactly what we did,...what Christ wanted for himself and for anyone else who followed him. It is ironic, and shows you how unChristlike Christianity is, that in the last 1000 years it has been Christians who have used this religion of Peace and Love to kill and kill and burn and burn and rob and rob and wreck and ruin and plunder not only the earth we all live on, but anyone who stood in their corporate path. Of course it isnt REAL Christianity...but it is a religion that allows for all sorts of unpleasantries..as they ALL do. Our version of it just turned the sword into our own guts and into the hearts of our children...whereas the unreal Christians stick the sword into the guts of someone else.
As it stands now, Assyrian Christians cannot TOLERATE success in this world AS ASSYRIANS. The only people I know of who have managed to take this name out there AND who are Assyrians themselves are Narsai and I. I dont say that to brag, it makes me sad and sorry, especially as I know my own limitations so well. Any number of us have made it out there, but only it seems after dropping any ethnic ties or allusions, and certainly no one has bothered to take anything Assyrian out there. I can see why now...first off if you go by the rules of an Atour or Nimrod, you have to be meek and humble enough to know your place, and that will just about kill you with producers and gallery owners out there. It does take a tremendous amount of ego, of a feeling that you BELONG up on that stage and nothing will stop you, to make it up on that stage...and god help you if you have many doubts once you get there. This is something that Atour knows nothing about...he has succeeded as an American working at Ford, thats all...as any kind of a leader for the community he has done about the usual dismal job they all do. What would induce them to improve any...they write these pompous and incoherentletters fawning and drooling all over people who must only laugh if they ever see them..and meanwhile they frustrate Rabel, tolerate lies and spread them themselves in order to keep occupying that meaningless position full of hot air and titles and dinner placemat awards they thrill at so...like any five year old. And to keep them happy, you and I have to become as infantile as they are...and tell me how thats going to play out on Broadway or in New York or Hollywood...places that would chew up and spit out an Atour or a Nimrod if they ever dared set foot there...AS ASSYRIANS with an ASSYRIAN point of view.