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In 1984 just as we were beginning to collect money for the Ashurbanipal Monument it was suggested that we meet with MarDinkha, chief Hottentot of one of the many branch offices of Christianity Inc. A meeting was arranged in San Francisco and I and a couple of friends were invited to his august presence. On the ride over it was gently suggested that it wouldn't be a bad idea to kiss his ring. Kneeling at his feet was optional but my friends assured me he'd really appreciate it if we kissed his ring. Right.

We sat in the living room of the house and chatted with MarDinkha and a few of the saints. He applauded our efforts but said he hoped we understood why he couldn't endorse or even mention this "noble undertaking"...something not even attempted in 2500 years...something that sought some recognition and pride for the Assyrian Heritage which he was of course "extremely fond of"...yata yata yata.

The same thing happened with Mar Ibrahim, the Chaldean Head Potato, in Detroit...note: I've been told that I should be careful when toying with Chaldeans because they are ferocious Christians who wouldn't hesitate to cut my head off for Jesus...my only reply is that Assyrians don't hide anywhere waiting on Jews...or fearing them. Mar Ibrahim met us in his Corporate Offices in Detroit...listened politely...promised one or two things and reneged on all of them within the week...he is a holy man after all and can always be forgiven...there's no end to the benefits that will come your way if you're willing to kneel. I was asked however by a junior associate if I'd consider making a statue of one of those Mars they all love so much and..."how many shekels would it be"? I suggested they go to Italy where they have saint-making-factories to get what they wanted...I'm Assyrian not Christian...I have no interest in working for Yahwe.

It strikes me as odd that the closest thing to a leadership we've ever had isn't interested in anything Assyrian...maybe I shouldn't be surprised for all they've done is mis-name their Christian myths, "Assyrian". I can't imagine the Archbishop of Canterbury not being interested in preserving British history if some day the country is destroyed and he's left as the only figurehead of what once was. I can't see him focusing all his energies on a cathedral in Rome, or anywhere, instead.

And there, as they say, is the rub. The English threw the pope out long ago and made a national church. It was still based on a Jew the Romans killed...but it served the British Natonal Interests in every way asked of it except for a few lapses when moral courage seized it briefly causing the church to condemn some particuarly heinous governmental action. But the church served the nation's complete needs as several of their greatest artists and scholars are buried in a Cathedral or two...not just spiritual needs but also secular and historical...cultural as well.

And that's what we lack. We didn't lack at all in anything when we followed Ashur who was our "indigenous" and also National God. But when the Romans beat us into Christianity and were glad to allow our own sect to convince us we'd jumped ship willingly, even joyously...we traded everything in, our pride, honor, self-respect, achievements, culture and heritage on a Jew god we then went on to claim was the same thing as Ashur anyway..right, like the two of them inspired their believers in equal ways...like the glory of Nineveh matched the non-existant temple of Solomon no one has ever found a single brick of and the toilets of Jerusalem were "almost the same thing" as the palaces of our kings.

We were raped...pure and simple. It shows in our self-loathing which is our greatest single characteristic wherever we go..but nowhere more so than when we are "safe" among the same Christians whose religion did the raping. Many instances were noted during the 70s, when taking hostages was a popular pastime, of the hostages "befriending" and tryng to "understand" their captors. It's reasonable under the circumstances for people don't like to oppose themselves to blind power..but later, when you're set free or at least could be..and you CHOOSE to stay or go live among the people who kidnapped and presumably violated you at some basic level...to willingly re-write the story of your capture and imprisonment yourself making it over into a lark and a "spiritual experience"...sugar-coating the denial of your humanity and dignity as well as the severing of contact with your families and the very different life you led all those centuries when you were free and lived within your own "culture"...to present instead to your children a picture that shows you running off and abandoning them willingly to live in dark rooms shackled to a bed on your knees, offering up prayers of thanksgiving to your kidnappers and expressing a fervent wish that you can go live with them and their Ringleader forever up in a penthouse in the sky...kept in the dark and helpless...dependant for life itself on the very people who denied self-respect and self-love to you and hold Life itself over your head and in the palms of their greasy hands, on which there's a ring you're pleased to kiss...to claim you WANTED to stay and are GLAD you were taken and insist no force was used for none HAD to be used... and given the chance to see the New Life possible as a prisoner...but that you always loved the children you WILLINGLY and JOYOUSLY abandoned...well, it should come as no surprise if those same children grow up confused about love...truth...decency...pride and their own value to those who claim they loved them MOST when they abandoned them...and willingly too.

For the person raped to love his rapist says it all. And that's what we are...professional and total and JOYOUS victims by now..but LOVING our vicimization beyond anything else. We won't even bolt for the door and our freedom and back to our own Family any longer...not even though our children stand outside and beckon to us...not even when the Christians murder a half million of them. For when we were made loyal to Christ...we forswore loyalty to anyone ever again...to ourselves most of all. We betray ourselves daily.

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