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Re: The Ballad Of Jackie Bejan
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Maggie wrote:
>"...I know...I KNOW!!! But I remember what my mother said to me way back on a day when I was sating these same things...back in 1978 when I'd come out from New York for the summer and brought my first piece of Assyrian art I'd copied from the Met...she said all you say about them is true...but so long as "bright" Assyrians like you think you are running after Europeans...what do you expect if you leave these people in charge? I had to admit she was right. That was the first time I went to a convention..it was in Los Angeles and I gritted my teeth and I HATED displaying myself and these pieces but what could I do? Always listen to your mother."
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>I get fed the same thing from my parents. They brain wash me, that's why I keep coming back. They do it so they can live through me, my son, or people like you.

...I never said it to do it the way they expect...the LAST thing my mother imagined was that I'd be threatened with arrest...OR that I'd build the first Assyrian, not Christian, monument in 2500 years...neither did she think I'd build another and get it accepted by Chicago...or that
"Assyrians" would block it...or that I'd smear Jackie's privates all over the net OR that I'd get sued by her for 2 mil...no one said anything about doing it the way THEY expect you to.
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>Look at Hanibal Alkhas. Does a single Assyrian appreciate him? NO! But look at the Persians, and how they worship him!

...I know...but there again it's Hannibal's fault...as part of it was mine. He's far more compliant than I was. We may be able to do more for the Assyrian name OUTSIDE the community than in...but I still think it's past time to kick these people hard...right where they live and where they've been maintaining this stranglehold on our younger ones.
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>"..it isn't easy to rescue this Heritage from what these slimeballs have done with it...but who ran out of Assyria and left them in charge? Who abandoned that magnificent structure and allowed the servants to come up from the basement and trash the place? Who WANTED to be Westernized and melted in a pot?"
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>You are right. I can't argue with that. BUT, it isn't easy working in the system, either. Sometimes you feel like you are compromising yourself staying with them, and that's the feeling I hate the most.

...no, no...NEVER compromise...as Ghandi said when someone told him how wonderful passive resistance is...he said he NEVER practised passive anything...same thing here...we can't build until the rot is cleared away..what people expect is that you'll come decorate their rotting structure...Christ didn't decorate their temple he chased the cocksuckers OUT!
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>"...I did it for the ones not born yet...I never had a single image before me growing up of something to be proud of, except dusty artifacts of what USED to be...and that just isn't good enough."
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>You speak for all of us, when you say that.
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>"...I do it for those two lovely Assyrian girls I can still see standing before the Shumirum monument the year we took the entire plaster statues to Chicago to unveil as a preview...there were crowds and noise and cameras rolling and excited applause and people lining up to take photos in front of our queen...and there were two little girls somewhere between 7 and 10...holding hands...gazing up at the queen towering above them...their eyes were sparkling and one of them asked me..."who IS she"?
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>She was our queen, I told them...and she was a little girl once."
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>I thought I had no more tears left for Assyria. I have cried myself to death. But you made me cry just now.
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>"I'll never forget the rapt look on their faces. It's for them..it sure as hell isn't for Nimrod or Bejan or 500 grairs."
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>Me too, believe me. That's what I say to myself every time I get ready to go on TV. And I'm FINALLY beginning to see some results. Young people come up to me now and tell me, we watch you all the time. We never miss your show. We never knew anything about Allaha Ashur, or Shumirum, or Inanna, or the Assyrian Tree of Life. We never knew how great we were and still are. We were always afraid to say we are Assyrians, because the world thinks we were pagan, cruel, etc. But now we are proud to say we are Assyrians. We start talking to non-Assyrians and tell them about the great contributions we have made to world civilizations. I was at an outdoor Cafe once, and young Assyrian came up to me and started to chit chat. The next thing I know we had a three hour dialogue about Assyrian culture and religion. I was so impressed with his knowledge, , I said to him "wow! I'm so proud at this moment. I never knew Assyrian youth knew so much about Assyrianism." He said to me, "you didn't know we were listening." It brought tears to my eyes. This is what keeps me going.

...what TV show? And never mind if you think the world of Dadeeshoo...you're nuts for Jesus but I can overlook it, I'm tolerant that way...if I don't mind Jesus, what's Dadeeshoo?
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>>Man, I have to hand it to you! Really. I couldn't last for more than a minute, much less years of this. I'm too fragile. It takes a BIG person who has lived a BIG life, to deal with the likes of them.
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>"...except they're small."
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>YOU are so RIGHT!!!!
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>"Where they hurt me was where they ruined me financially as far as my family is concerned..that was tough."
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>I know, that hurts. They probably couldn't have hurt you if you had no family. Your family is the one that counts the most. They are what we live for and we live through. Like Khalil Gibran said, "your children, are not your children. They are the sons and daughters of life, longing for itself."

..another Assyrian we don't honor because he loved the Arabic language...there's a subject for a portrait!
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>"jackie called around and told people they were betraying Assyria and P.S. would piss her off, if they "supported" me. The last three years, finally after years of struggle I'd managed to average ninety grand a year selling sculpture as free-lance to ASSYRIANS! I'd built the kind of trust that three Assyrians paid in full for the maquette of Hammurabi before I even knew what it would like..you'd think these people would be eager to let our young people know it was possible..."
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>It's actually the other way around. She betrayed Assyria by doing something like this to an Assyrian artist. There is no Assyria so long there are no Assyrian artists. As for the young, they could care less about them! No, they don't want to let our young people know it's possible. They don't even know what the word "possibility" means. They are afraid of themselves, so naturally they are afraid of everyone else, and all that's to come.
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>"but they were pissed instead...the same year Jackie sued me my income dropped to near zero...I would NEVER attack someone I had a personal disagreement with at their JOB...no matter how angry I was at jackie I wouldn't have dreamed of calling her suppliers or customers and telling them I knew the "truth" about Jackie..."
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>It can only take someone like her to be able to do that.
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>"that next Christmas my three children had to do without a lot..but Jackie's children had all their presents...my daughter even had to withstand seeing her own horse ridden by strangers who rented him...in hopes of making the fledgling business owrk...i was forced to cut my prices in half and managed to sell to people who knew a good deal when they saw one."
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>That's how they operate. They don't realize what murderers they are. By God, she was not only going to punish you, but ALL of Assyria. Assyria would be no more! so Jackie could get her revenge. No artist, no art, no visible structures by which Assyria can function!!!
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>"Jackie reached out and hit me at my ability to feed my children...never mind the twenty year effort. people say I am bitter...bull. It was in the cards...I knew it was...everyone warned me that it was..the more successful the more grairs would see shit where the nation saw beautiful art...they're built like that...shit all the through...it just spills out sometimes."
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>It is enough that her children will know this, if they don't already. It is enough that she will always think of you when she catches a glimpse of your sculpture. It is enough that she has to mention your name every time someone asks her who made this beautiful piece or that beautiful piece.

...yeah...I think of that...especially of the nude sculpture I gave her as a gift when she bought the larger version for her downstairs...it sits in her bedroom where she can remember me...NOT!
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>"But I'll have the last laugh...she already got a good taste of what can happen when someone speaks openly and fearlessly, regardless of her law suits and attempts to shut people up...I told her, there is no such thing as bad publicity for an artist...none. There are projects I put off for years while I concentrated on Assyrian art..and after this last Assyrian piece..I'll get to them...there are other ways of promoting this Heritage than aiming at Assyrians...but even there, thanks to all of this I've found new and younger Assyrians who understand perfectly...and I WILL sell again!"
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>I believe you have had many laughs already. You laugh every time Jackie walks through her house and sees your sculpture. You laugh ever time she has a guest that admires your sculpture. You laugh every time a young Assyrian looks at the monuments, or some stranger sees your monument. You will be laughing even when you are no longer here, visibly, because you will still be here through your art. Your hands, your fingers, your soul, will touch everyone who sees these sculptures for all eternity. So you still have many laughs to come.

...and don't forget 500 grairs.
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>"..what pissed Jackie off especially is that she has to PAY to be a leader...Lincoln said that to her once while we sat having tea at their home...he told jackie that the only reason the people hang on her every word is for her MONEY...how she hated that. What pissed them all off, especially John, who also has to pay...and Jackie...is that people pay ME! That's what they couldn't forgive."
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>Even there, you have won. No one respects her anymore. Even those that used to hang on her every word are no criticizing her and have withdrawn from her. More and more Assyrians are condemning her for her deceptions in the Assyrian political process.

...the woman literally has no friends...she overwhelms people with attention for a bit...and most of them are more won over by her money than by her actual achievements...I have great respect for the actual abilities she has..she is extremely well spoken, a marvellous organizer...excellent at shmoozing and knows how to get things done...with some taste and decorum...it's the vindictive part of her that kills the rest...when she doesn't get the kind of return she thinks is due her for all she has done "for you"...she turns on people.

One woman who told a friend of mine how apalled she was at what Jackie had done was warned not to let her feelings be known...because her small business had many Assyrian customers and Jackie would pressure people but to buy from her any longer out of loyalty to her personally...and she does that sort of thing because she too believes she should have more power...and this is one way to use it...the resl deal with her, I think, is that she'd be a dime a dozen in the Armenian community....so she decided to grace us poor slobs with her presence...in our community she can shine...easily...which is what they all want.

..you should have heard her at nights when she'd come home after meetings at her club...Lincoln and I would be watching TV...their two boys either asleep on the sofa next to us or upstairs...Jackie would come home....kick off her shoes and go into a lengthy diatribe about what assholes they all were and how difficult it was to lead such people...to which Lincoln would reply.."and THIS is why you go out every night and leave us here"?

..maybe it's not right to reveal these kinds of things...even though they happened...but this is aprt of my work too...to show Jackie and the rest of them that saying things behind people's backs, especially when you spread out and out lies...lies the person may never know are being circulated...is spot balls on WRONG. I told her...I told her clb...what I had to say now I would say in public...and when she sued me she knew all along that I coulod prove what I said...and that is the only defense you need for a charge of sloander..that what you said is the TRUTH.

...sometime later someone circulated a letter slamming Jackie...people in her club assumed it must have been my doing...but they corrected themselves and said that if it had been me, I'd have done it in the open for I have said EVERYTHING there is to say and maintained it as the truth and spent two years going through the steps to have my day in court and prove my case...that's one advantage of being open and up front...no one has to guess when it's you anmd when you say it easn't...they believe you.

I've always found in this community that if you want to run down the street naked but are worried about what people will say...do it!...they'll just make it up about you one day anyway..it's very liberatig actually.
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>>No wonder all our dead Assyrian artists became schizophrenic in the end! Our people drive them to it.
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>"..not this one...not this one. This is a long overdue house-cleaning..no more will these shysters get a free ride to the top of this heap they've made of Assyria...at least they know...like my cousin Robert DeKelaita, a Nimrod in training..that someone is watching who'll dice and slice them up if they make a false move..and since all their moves are false...they'll watch it...I burned them far more than they burned me...i can recover..there's no place where Jackie can go where she isn't wondering who there read all about her sexual fixation and behavior. It's their own deeds come back to haunt them where they always got away with it before that pisses them off and makes think I am out to "get" them...I'm out to stop them from getting US!"
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>You don't have to even try anymore. They are hanging themselves more and more each day. They will soon be forgotten, and their pedestals will crumble. It has already started.
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>"..no tributes...that places people on pedestals and excuses others from doing their share. It's very simple...we only have to confront these plaster saints to rid ourselves of them..that's half of it...the other part is that we have to DO something ourselves worthy of distinction..and we can..but the two go together..if we don't rid ourselves of the rotten foundations, everything we build on top of it will collpase...that's why we have to resist their seemingly sincere calls to have the "youth" come "help them" and "get involved"..they know what they're doing...they mean bring your enthusiasm and your idealism and let us CRAP all over you and break your hearts!!! These calls for youth excellence are nothing more than the lure they use to kill such possibilities...for the long run. The whole thing is a mediocrity working overtime to make sure it STAYS that way."
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>Great words to live by!
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>move over!!!



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